A lil thought would do

Was pissed off with him on last friday. It's not bcus of you having to enjoy with your colleagues, it was the words that hurt me. You still don't know how to handle your words carefully, I totally can understand you. But after hours, the first call from you. Why is it that within the hour, you didn't even to bother to call me.

Sat somewhere to enjoy the breeze. Count myself lucky to have her when I needed someone. She came down and accompanied me though she was feeling unwell.

I thought to myself, why do i bother so much about what you have said when you are out there enjoying yourself? My heart rules my brain, that's all I can say. Afterwhich we patched things up and i know you are sorry for what you have said.

Always felt like a lil girl when I'm with him. Pampering me , care & concern just simply makes me a happy girl!

Done with lunch and back to work! How I hope the time passes quickly.

Xoxo,
Signing off...

Year 2012 ; Memo 1

In the year 2010, Halloween Party got me wasted.

Been craving for Brewerkz....

Pri-mates

This cute lil boy name is Javier.

I can't load pictures into livejournal so I am left with no choice but to update this space here.

I do not know why am i here jotting down my thoughts. Had this very random thought that I should capture down those beautiful memories for myself, in the near future. It's only the 5th day of the Year 2012. I've lots of things to do in this year! Such like, earn BIG money!!! While typing, my leg started to feel itchy.(Ohkay, I know it's kind of random but I just want to remind myself what I was doing while trying to update this space)

Actually I shouldn't be updating this space at this timing as I am still in the midst of working but I wanna eat snake... Well, just applied cream to the itch and it doesn't help at all !!

Memories from the past just triggered by past me today when I was viewing the photos taken at different places. Places like MDIS, clubs etc... I really miss those times spent together with my peers. As for now, I'm really greatful to have found him, the special one and only. Yes, you got it right. I am referring to my BoyF. Always being there for me and making my day end wonderfully. Never did he despise me and look down on me. The paths that we walked through together wasn't long, wasn't short but long enough for me to know his character BUT he has yet to understand me thoroughly but no fear, we have lots of precious time to spend in the future. I'm not trying to boast about him but I can admit that he's the GOOD guy that I have been searching for.

I've always been looking forward for a short getaway trip with him and Daphne. Untag Genting Highlands for the moment. Been there 3 times last year and I don't wish to visit and donate my money again for the time being till I've visited places like HK or BKK.

Shall update this little space again.

& till then !

New year 2011 , New revolution

It's a new year 2011 . Therefore a new revolution too !

Thinking back in Year 2010, was still working in inQbox and now, Pansing Mag. Things come and go and happiness and unhappiness happened. Well, one good thing that I'm really happy was, I found myself a good and caring BoyF. He never fails to endure and makes me smile when I'm upset or feeling moody and always there for me, likewise me always there for him to listen to his naggings at work. ETC...

I'm already feeling lazy to cont...

My new year revolution for 2011...

• Earn more $
• Have more savings
• Good health among all
• Stay happy with BF forever ! :D

TO.BE.CONTINUED.

eleven08ten

Feels happy whenever with him. Gives me the number one place in his heart. It feels superb good! I'm a blissful girl with him by my side. (:

weekly routine

Happy moments passes quickly. How I wish that moment could be stagnant !
Till now, it's like a weekly routine. At least once a week !
Boom! :D

6 down and 2 up

A sigh of relief! I'm over you and I am happy about it. Moving on to my future that is awaiting for me!

New chapter in life.

6 down and 2 up. Way to gooooooooooo ! =)

Misses ! =)

I rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else.

Been rather lazy to update my miserable blog. But I've decided to do it now. Great companions these few weeks. Different places to hangout and activities. I guess I really getting sick of clubbing, maybe towards PH. Been there for not more than 5 hours yesterday and we decided to head to H.I.G.H . Thanks D for fetching us ! =)

Never fail to make me laugh like a mad woman. HAHAHA!

Mad love with Flaming lambo. Had two yesterday but the alcohol didn't lasted. =(!

You never fulfil your promises that you made to me. You never once meant what you say. You never once understand what I'm thinking or feeling. I will really move on if I have find someone better. =)

I rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else.

爱上你是不需要理由， 因为那个理由已经足够

I miss you, ♥Silly.

Never did I miss someone so much that every minute, every seconds , ure always on my mind. I really need a rehab !

♥♥爱上你是不需要理由， 因为那个理由已经足够。♥♥

Time for miracle

Time for miracle.

After 2 months, I'm still into you. That is so unlike me at all. But I feel that it isn't going anywhere, as we're still stagnant. Not much changes much, but I guess this might be better? Just let it be and let fate decide.

You'll be heading for Genting Highland tomorrow night. Please take care of yourself and be back in one piece K? Though it's just for two days. But I will still be worried for you.

Saw my eye candy again for the third time ! And really obsessed. Hehe*

If i were to see eye candy again, I'll walk up and talk to him ! =)

Saw somethings and I realised she always say this but does that. But what to do, love is blind. Better not keep in contact with him in case I got the name of "bitch" or whatsoever you wish to name me. Once bitten, twice shy.

I move on and I don't look back. There's a reason why those people didn't make it to my future. =)

Silly, I don't know whether those things you told me was the truth or not. But I still chose to believe you. So please don't make me disappointed in you K? If not, I will really have to move on again.

Should I?

Though I said I want to let go of this feelings that I have for you, it's really impossible for me to do it. I always wonder to myself. Why is it whenever I post those serious status as you have mentioned, you'll always appear again? I posted them is to tell myself to let go of these fruitless beginning. I told you that and you said you'll leave me alone and never bother me anymore. At that point of time, I was hell afraid of losing you. Ever since, I never felt this way. I don't know what I want but I just want to maintain these between us. I am satisfied with all these. I don't wish for more just in case things turned out sour.

All I wish now is for Saturday's birthday bash to be happening and BFF Daphne to enjoy herself.
Thanks girl, for everything. Being there for me when I'm feeling down. Scold me to gain my senses back. Etc. Shall do one official post for her after the chalet =)

I wanna see that eenie meenie miney mo lover of mine

Party on the friday and rest on a Saturday. Which happens to be this week. Acc-ed my mother for breakfast today and the sun is freaking hot!!

Wednesday headed for Lan shop. How I wished I could pause the time when you fb chat with me "Love u" . It really felt sweet at that point of time.

We had known each other for over a month and we never fail to contact each other every day. Till now, I'm still not bored of you which means... =)

Ure working and though we hardly text or talk on the phone, at the end of the day, I will still receive you message! I like that ohkay !! =))

I wanna see that eenie meenie miney mo lover of mine ! =)

Sunshine after rain

We had a chat this morning... And I feel that we were like before. I like that feeling... You knew I have feelings for you and you called me stupid... I miss you , boy.

It really makes me upset to see girls calling you baby, honey and silly(which is only called by ME). I just want you to stand in my shoes. You don't like me meeting guys but you think I like girls calling and saying those things to you? I don't like. I'll cry my lungs out which I did on Saturday.

Why is it whenever I told myself to sort things out, you'll appear? I don't expect much, just wanna you to understand how I felt. =)

How much I wanted to tell you IMY when you asked me. But I just don't dare...

I miss you, Silly. =)

Whatya want from me

I seriously don't know what are you thinking. Does being honest becomes an offend? I spoke the truth to you but you were unhappy about it. Better then I hide and not tell you? Texted you several times but no reply. Text you again today saying good luck for your appeal. Normally you would reply me but now? WTF! I asked myself is this what I want? I guess not. I told buddies that I don't want to process more cause I know that in side myself, I don't think you are the one. Well, life is like this. I just have to accept it?

Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I'm afraid
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn't give a damn
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see
That baby you're beautiful
And it's nothing wrong with you
It's me... I'm a freak
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn't even try but I think
You could save my life

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up on me
I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

So
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
(Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

I just want that Mac'Silly back.

Could I?

I am not being selfish right? =)

Eenie meenie money mo lover

Eenie meenie money mo lover ♥

I.M.Y(silly) !

10 Days alr.

Remedy to my illness

Didn't really sleep much today. When I started to fall asleep, R.E kept spamming my phone and I can't sleep in peace !!! Arggggggg! But lucky it's a good news. I'm going for a job interview tomorrow at 10am. I hope I will be able to wake up in time for it. Cause I can really feel that my whole body is so weak. Wasn't feeling really good as in my health, but once I received his msg, It's like a remedy to me. I smiled the moment I read the msg. So sweet can !!! Hehehehe :D

Ure like a happy pill to me. =)

FUCK

Just back home after clubbing at St James Power Station. Woke up real early but fell back asleep at 11am+. Prepare and went for interview at 5pm. Window shopping and headed to PH.

Felt so happy when I saw "=)". Sigh, he didn't sent me much msg this few days. Whatever, I won't be the girl that will be waiting for guys to text. Fuck those things and stuffs that you asked me that day. That's me. If you want it, you text me. If not, so be it though I will not be used to it. But whatsoever it is, I have to get used to it. Nothing can carry on like this. I am gonna start work on weekends and i doubt I will be clubbing occasionally. Though Im like always saying these same old things. Saturday and Sunday full shift. Seriously, how I can carry on like this? Maybe once or twice per month? Idk... Weird feelings. FUCK !

I am back !

I am back ! My blog has been rotting for months ! Have been really lazy to do some updating. But finally, I am sitting in front of my laptop and doing some updates !

Well, for the past few months I have been clubbing like no bodies business and i am currently jobless. My previous company " inQbox " closed down. Don't ask me why , as I don't know the reason to it. It's really a pity as I have feelings for it for the past 1 year. Time passes really quickly and now I am hitting twenties' soon. My peers around me says that they are afraid of hitting twenties but I think it's like nothing. Maybe when I really hit twenties, I'll feel old. Seriously, I need to find a job real soon ! Any lobangs ??

Recently many things happened and I can't really explain all in one night. I think I'm falling sick as I have sore throat now! Not enough sleep these few days. I really need a good sleep ! I miss my ex-colleagues from inQbox.

I wonder when will our tanning session be........... *Laughs*

More random photos to be loaded tomorrow...

Till then...

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home

Being a good girl to stay at home on a Saturday night. How rare of me which mostly people would say if they were to see me online. Can't I get tired and no mood for clubbing? I am a human, I do need a break too. Hoping to explore more places rather than to hang at the same old place which makes me feel sick.

I have to many things in mind to buy and I'm going broke soon! Had been eyeing for heels recently and I am so afraid that I can't resist the temptation and buy it!

Need to save for the upcoming trip in feb! Can't wait for it!

Need some work out soon! Most prob on Monday! Maybe I'll be sleeping early today. Surprisingly... Haha

Lost without you

Having the sudden urge to blog so here I am. Well, currently I'm having the cravings for prawning... Anyone?? Had this craving due to my weird dream.

The weather has been freezing cold for the past few days. How I wished I could have a warmth hug. It has been some time since I felt that warmth. I remembered the moments spent with him. Just some random thinking while working. And whenever the song "You found me" is playing, eventually, you will come straight to my mind. Guess that I still can't really put you behind. Somehow I still miss you very much. Don't ask me why cause I don't know it myself either.

Feeling lethargic for the past few days too. I don't know why am I so tired lately. I really want a break. I need a long sleep. I need some personal time.

Whenever I think of you, a smile would appear on my face.
Thinking of the stuffs we chatted in the past, makes me yearn for it.
How I wished I could turn back time which I know It's impossible.
I remember you said you would send some warm jacket to me when I'm feeling cold.
Now, no one would say that to me anymore.
You're gone forever.
No more by my side to care and give concern to me.
No one to nag me to sleep early.
No one to pester me to eat my meals.
No one to surprise me with my favorite food.
No one to cheer me up whenever I am feeling low.
Others will comment me by saying stupid or whatsoever.
I don't care or even bother to what they have to say.
I know what I am doing.
I just freaking miss you, C.H.P!
Your smile melts me.
Your chats makes me happy.

After few months, I'm still clinging on...
Just like a panda clinging on to the bamboo sticks.
I'll cling till there are no more bamboos in these forest.

Lost without you...

Nothing Is Really Over Until You Stop Trying

"Nothing Is Really Over Until You Stop Trying"