I love you , Mum.

Reached home and saw the cake that my mother bought for my birthday. Tears filled my eyes, and for once, I really regretted answering her back and not being a good daughter. Mother's love is the strongest!

To Mum :
Thanks mum for the cake. I really didn't expect that you will buy a cake for me. I'm sorry for the past for what I have done. From today onwards, I'll do my part as a good daughter. I'm sorry for showing attitudes for the past few years. I'm sorry.
I love you , Mum.

With loves,
Your daughter, Junie.

Miracles to happen

Woke up early to visit the Doctor due to my coughing which already took place for almost a week. Been rather tired since Sunday, wasn't myself throughout the week. You never fail to occupy my mind with those words you mentioned to me. Guess I won't be seeing you even once before my birthday.

I never fail to pray to God for some miracles to happen bewteen us.
I know clearly that I'm lying through my teeths, but I just want to stay positive.

Think....

Fuck life, fuck love, fuck everything. Screw up everything I have. All fucked it. Starting as good as an angel but as time goes by, turning into a devil with red horns. Why are all of them the same? Can't some of them just be exceptional from the others? I guess not... Was super shag today due to some fucking stuffs early in the morning. Late for work, but lucky jimmy didn't KP. The thing was in my mind all the time even though I still laugh or busy doing things. Every where is memories. Even in the shop. The route where we cross the road to MS, void deck, shell station, green tea and huggy and kissy scene. I can't simply make a decision right now. At the point of time when I'm falling... I don't want to regret my decisions. Seriously, I really didn't know what those actions meant. Can't they possibly use their mouths to say it out? What are mouths for? And i don't know why I would allow you... Ah, fuck it man. Vexed from all those thinkings whereas you just texted and ask me not to think so much and go home and sleep early when it's fucking hard to do it. Why can't they simply stand in our shoes? Is it so hard? Well, as for them, i guess so... Feeling so lethargic since Sunday. I ought to get this matter a solution. But I'm afraid that it would turn out negative. I seriously don't know what I want. I'm not sure whether few days are enough for me to sort things out. How can he say till so simple? Guess I really know who really cares and love me for who I am. =)

Having to think what I want ...........................................................

always exists in my heart

Wasn't in the mood for work today. Can't help but to think of him. OhmyG... I still remembered what I thanked God for when I went to church.
"Thank God for K.Tjen" You make me feel happy when with you =)

Texted and told loves about it. I'm sorry for thinking about it =(
I was really afraid =(

My cough is getting from bad to worse.

He's presence always exists in my heart,
even though he isn't beside me =)

ily ; K.Tjen

Last minute got to work, good thing in disguise as I have no more UPL this month. So pay will still be the same =)

Previous post was kinda messy, due to the mood that I was having ytd night. Well, didn't actually knew that I am falling for you alr. Missing you every single mintue when you aren't with me. And since then, I have been thinking alot. I know it's useless to think so much but I just couldn't help it. I am really afraid of losing you alr. Don't see me as a strong girl on the outside, actually I'm the oppositie on the inside. This is really a 'test' to both of us. And when after you told me about your nightmare, actually it didn't bother at all. But ytd after you left, on my way to Suntec, I have been thinking about it. Actually it does bother me alot. I'm really afraid you are still in your 'past tense'. Somehow, the feelings you gave me is quite similiar to him. I don't know... Mayb I am being paranoid. But I won't have this kind of feelings for no reason. Well, maybe one fine day I'll pour out my thoughts to you so that you would know what I am thinking deep down. I guess that's the only solution that could settle me down deep inside.

I would wish to treasure this r/s but it takes two hands to clap. You told me you would, but time will tell it all =)
Loves, I am missing you every mintue, seconds. How? I am thinking like what are you doing now, eaten alr, most imptly, will you be booking out this weekend and meeting me? =) I just have to see your cute face and spiky hair to calm myself down =)

Off to work, can't wait till ten for loves to text me =)

ily ; K.Tjen

I'm loving your everything

Starting from what happened yesterday.

Met up with Loves yesterday night for movie! Freaking miss him lots! Chilled and slack till times up & I love crossing the road with him (: Went for our movie......................... =)

Today after church waited for loves to reach yishun, bought the tix and movie time! =) But after movie, loves got to go =( Felt sad but can't help it. Prepares to book in =) Freaking miss loves after we went our separate ways.
Trained down to Suntec & waited for Jasmin to knock off from work. Bused to Far East after that and met up with the bitches. Dinner, chill and photo taking done.

I love the way you hold my hands and cross the road

& saying that I'll be safe with you around.

I love the way you hold me in your embrace.

I love the way you kiss me in the lips.

I love touching your spiky(botak) head.

I'm loving your everything =)

Day 9

The Reunion.

Food that Jasmin cooked for me!

Day 9
Started work late and CA and Maiko dropped by! Hahas... Had some mini talks and we were all cursing and swearing together. That's the consequences of offending girls. (Smirks) End of the day, joey came! It's like finally... After work, chilled with Jasmin at the same old place and had our secretive chats :D


Yes!! Will be neeting Loves tomorrow after work! Can't wait to see loves with his botak head! Miss him super lots!

How I hope you were with me every single seconds (: