Brain ; heart

30 july 2008
Yesterday night, dreamt of weird dreams. I woke up & slept back and I could dream of him. & i woke up again and slept back & I dreamt of him again! A numberous of times and i totally freakout. Found myself in cold sweat when i woken up completely.
My mood sucks. Having ups and lows. No cheering did helped me at all. but thanks for cheering me up. Hearts you people. Did nothing but stare in blank space for the most of the time. Did not know what I was even thinking. But once I opened my mouth, full of vulgarities blunted out. The worst day for me so far. I really hope this feeling could fade away soon. When i was watching television, receive something and my heart was beating damn hard. & I do not know why I am feeling this. It's been a long time since I have this feeling. I don't wanna hit the jackpot. This jackpot doesn't belongs to me. Mind is in a whirl.

31 july 2008
Message throughout the night with Zhurick though i fell asleep. But woke up not long. So after all, slept for the pathetic 2 hours plus. When i was already felling asleep, my mother's alarm clock rang. Chicken Pie can ?! & the random him asked whether i wanna watch Money No Enough 2. & the random me said anything. Climbed myself up to get my laptop started. & i called mango. As she had already promised me to come yewtee today?! But she slept so soundly that she didn't even actually answer to my calls ! How great that can be. And when i was ready to go step out of the house, she replied me. And pull her down to watch too. Zhurick called danny to tag along. And of cause the steady him said yes. Waited for all to arrived and bought our tix.
The movie reminded me of my grandmother. I think it is the same fate as my grandmother but my grandmother is still lucky as she is still alive. She doted on her sons most but all of them just took things for granted. Seeing my grandmother in this state really pains me. I regret not caring for her more. I could remember there was once when i have serious stomach cramps and she was there for me. She kept asking me if i was alright anot. I said i wanted hot water and she bought me hot water despite having difficulties in walking. I rather have my grandmother scolding and nagging then to have her not able to walk or eat solid things. The sight of her really pains everyone of us. I almost tear when i had the last visit to Malaysia. I miss the times when i live in grandma and grandpa house. Luckily she does have good daughters to care for her. I don't hope for anything now. I just hope she can live longer and that's all. I will really break down if she really goes away just like this...
Went down to hougang after the movie. & mango got her geek specs back from jj. And off we went to see them riding. So bored can. Danny was like entertaining us all the way. Calling me "da jie da". And he will always walk behind me. Damn hilarious lahs ! And we saw 1 mama dog and child dog. And the coincidence thing is that the mama dog's name is BELLBELL! Whatthefish. then mango and danny kept good bellbell, guai bellbell. and zhurick later came to join in ! Really almost bao xue guan. Walk & walk & walk. When i reached home, i really felt the tiredness already. I don't want to go down to hougang.

Brain is mine but the thinking isn't mine at all.
Heart is mine but the feeling isn't mine too.
When will i have the right thinking and feeling?
Guess i need time some time to find them.

Happy 18th birthday Audrey .
Am really glad that ure my classmate (:
Stay happy and cheerful always.

_|_ mood

Bodoh in scaring people.

Gross
Some long lost pig.

Was at town yesterday evening with mango, danny, derrick, junjie, ultraman(could only remember this).

Don't know what to say as I dont have the fucking mood now to type. I'll just roughly elaborate.Mood is flickered yesterday. One moment movie, & the next moment don't want movie. Saw lesbian working there too. She forget my name. That's a great thing? Cause she used to di-siaosiao me in secondary school. Saying "Junie(showing me de heart shape)." Makes me wanna puke. & i will show her back the crack sign. Great memories in secondary school.

Waited for jj at cineleisure. & headed to PS. Ohya, saw many classmates(su*y). Saw emodan at bunk. So skinny can. Always at bunk. Bunk sucks up money. Afterwhich, went to ps de food court and makan. Wanted to eat the indonesia food really really much ! But the queue was damn long and sian 1/2. So went to buy spicy steamboat. Ate the fish and drink few spoonful of soup and don't feel like eating already. Was laughing all the way can.

Arcade & later on, some bodoh was playing with the poster outside. Trying to scare people with it but failed. Such a failure can. & after that mango bought jj to eat leaf. *gross* Saw handful of spartan's people. And stone somewhere. Deciding where to go. __ mood zzz. Mai continue liao. They went airport . I went home. Bye.

Photo talks.

I'll let the photos do the talking.
Imy (:
-Ohkays, kind of random-

House hunting part 1

24 July 2008
Met ahping and ahhui in the morning for hotcake breakfast !
So funny lahs can !
Then ahhui went to school for her 'plastic' test :X
(dont say si junie ;x)
And ahping and me went to buy the tickets for The Dark Knight !
Not bad lahs this movie....
Maybe i drank too much water and half way through, i was like having high tide.
& i endure till the extend, and i rush to the ladies.
One word ; Relieve.
Luckily i didn't miss any exciting part.
GO AND WATCH IT. BUT REMEMBER NOT TO DRINK SO MUCH WATER ;D

25 July 2008
Ahping call me in the morning !
So tired can ... She asked : Bugis or Lan.
& i chose Lan ;X
I am always lazy on friday .
I don't know why .
Met & waited for cyj to come.
Walked to Krislan & lan time .
I got to declare that their keyboard Sucks.
& there was one weird guy keep looking at us.
So eerie can !
Ahping coupled Danny. -Laughs-
Then ahhui went to find boyF & we went to Cp.
Makan-ed and home sweet home

Having house hunting tomorrow & i might be shifting back to yishun.
Hope to find a good location !

Brave Girl Misses Melvin ;X
-Brave enough to say out loud-
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~~~~~~

Lonesome girl.

I AM A BRAVE GIRL !
I travelled all the way to Vivo City ALONE !
How brave can i be.

Went for a interview which took not more then 5 minutes.
Will they hire me ?
But I am kind of lazy to work too.
Depending on them, if they were to hire me.
Then I will be able to work with Ahhui !
If no, then i will be studying...

Headed home after that. And LDD dated me out for an ice-cream date.
I am a good friend so practically, i agreed.
& Trained down to CauseWay Point.
Had our ice-cream & we wondered ard CWP for a while because CWP has limited things there.
I feel so bloated.
Please don't date me for Ice-cream for the time being.

And yup, I'm home now.
& audition is down for maintaince.
Damn it , I am so bored.
& this CYJ is crapping me.
& He is shooting me all the way.
WTFISH !

Aws, yvonne's giving birth soon.
Time really flies...
I just felt that your wedding was not long ago and now you are giving birth...
I miss you Yvonne Ng (:

Starting my new module next week.
Yawns ~ School time !

Lame reason

[ Photos taken on 14 july ; Party world outing ]

Tako , Ahhui , Mango , Ahbell

AHHUIx3 ; AHBELLx3

Ohkays, screw-ed my telemarketing job.
Found out the main reason already.
And the reason is completely no link & lame.
Reason : My appearance looks shy, too quiet.
Wtfuck? Is that a reason?
Lame prudential, lame xavier.
Conclusion : Lame boss.


Searching for part time job.
Any? Intro to me please :D
Thanks !

Miss my hair :(

My hair is fucking SHORT!

GRRR.....

ANGRY SIAL !

Look so toot with this hair...

WTFUCK!

Please dont laugh at my new hair cut T_T

Working

Tired !!!!

Been working this few days. Lack of sleep...

Prank called other people and they fell for it.

Charmane was like replying everything that i have asked.

Till an extend, called people for a chat cause all those number is either No ans, Not in use, Not interested. Was like duhhh....

Met up with Siping and ate mac, which was like so finally cause i have been craving for it since before holiday started. And after that, siping's cousin came. OMFG ! Her body shape is like O_O!

So envy ;x

Really nice figure!

Accompanied her to eat her long craving noodle and soon siping's boyF came =.="

Jeff ; Which look like ahem's boyfriend.

He became handsome ;x

I remember those 2 times which i met him, not as charming as yesterday ;X

Bought tickets for Penelope.

Not bad, worth watching BUT I STILL WANT TO WATCH WANTED ! :(

I felt i was so extra =X

Gosh ! I so wanna get one too ;X

(Grrr)

And ltr on, went to work again!

Call Htp and chat!

He is like entertaining me throughout.

Such a joker lahs !

Wow, my boss quite handsome wor ;x

But i'm not interested lahs !

Then he ask for my age and he say too young .

(._.")

Then got sabo-ed,while in the training room, he said my face like got qns to ask him which i really dont have.

And amantha shouted : she wanna know if ure single or attached =.=!

(OMFG)

And he replied, i was too young again !

Of cause i replied him cause u too old ;x

Hope i didn't offended my boss.

If not he will be making my life miserable =\

&&& Home sweet home.

(The egg tarts there is delicisious!)

Lazy

One thing I'm sure of is that I'm a lazy blogger.
I want to update but when I'm in front wanting to type, it simply makes me damn lazy to think of what to write.

I want to go Kbox !
Where are my singing kakis !
Please jio me go :(

Ohkays, just changed my blog song.

ZhiYang Sucks :X (runs)
& I Miss Ben-dan ! (study hard !)

If i hate you, i do have my reasons.
Dont' push the blame to others for the things you had done.
Cause I'll find it a bitchy act of yours.
Firstly, your attitude simply sucks.
Secondly, your character made you sucky.
At first , i thought i was wrong.
But i was right about it.
Stop being a boot-licker and lick people's ass.
If you think I said things that are untrue, tell me then.
Cause MAYBE I was blind to befriend you.
With you or without you doesn't make my life any different.
Well, if there's you in my life, maybe i'll just say " oh, another bitch ".
I'm straight forward.
Maybe this post that i have blogged has offended you.
Sorry then.
ALL OF THE ABOVE ARE FACTS !
I'll leave this person's name anonymous.

Extra Cares

Okay, I am finally 18 on 30th june 2008.

Maybe i'm aging that's why lots of things are occupying my mind.

Having exams on my birthday isn't such a good thing. I don't know why.

Just hate that feeling.

Well, my peers treated me to Sushi Tei.

Thanks alot !

Mikko came to my house today to come and sort of repair my **** .

And the suey her got caught when buying cigg.

I have got to follow her down to paya lebar.

Which is fucking far !

And all thanks to pancake, my **** is working well again.

And because of this, i owe him a meal !

I will keep up to my promise !

Met up with Zhong Wen and Elvin too.

Just a short meet up.

I am getting so worn out !

Well, somethings aren't meant to be spoken so clearly.

It's the matter of fact which in the near future you would get to understand.

Don't hold on things that doesn't belong to you anymore.

Let it go and maybe you will feel even better but indeed the process of letting go in kind of bitter.

Having to abuse yourself isn't gonna work.

Because it will just leave some scars which you will forever remember that hurtful past of yours.

You got to let go of the past and welcome the future with your bare hands.

My scars aren't visible.

They are in my heart.

Who knows what we are thinking actually.

Even myself don't know that answer.

Maybe i need some extra cares too :'(

Gonna browse through my book again !

-Reply of tags-

28 Jun 08

Yimei : Linked (:

29 Jun 08

ZhiYang : walaus you always say love xiao qiang but no love me =X LOL! =X

Hiro(slowboy) : UPDATED ! Whr is my birthday post =X lala ~ Thanks for being there (:

Liyah : Hello classmate :D

30 Jun 08

Siping : Thanks (:

Ahhui : Thanks ahhui !MEET UP SOON ! Our singing session ;X

Mikko : Cos the cockroach love you =X

ZhiYang : Thanks <3>

1 Jul 08

HuiMin : Thanks (: Meet up soon :D

2 Jul 08

Phat0m : Got ur name liao la ;x see the Loves section =X <3