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Wore that tee-shirt to school. How i wish you could embrace me tightly and be here for me. *beats*(ouch) Wishful thinking of mine. Hahaaa~ (upload the tee pic someother day)

Today have been a long day for me. Lesson till 5pm but ended early. Sometimes, i really hate myself. As for why i hate myself, i am so silly. Just as hw Ginn said me. SILLY ME. hahaas~

Sometimes, i feel lost. No one to talk to. No one to share my problems. No one understands how i feel. No one....
Okay, i have no idea what i want to type.

The assignment is stressing me out.
Fag school.

Get the fagging out of my mind.

Memories

Was out with ahhui & ahblue at bugis. It's so bored lahs can?! No activities planned. All we did was talk talk talk & accompanied ahhui bought her stuffs.

Though i miss you, miss you like a friend.

I love you, love you like a friend.

Care for you, care like a friend.

Memories come and go & i can't get hold of it. I wish that you will be smiling always and don't keep everything to yourself. You can share your problems with friend. And do treat me like a friend still, don't treat me like an enemy (:

Afterall, God made us an item once though we ain't fated to be one forever (:

Update again... I'm so boreddddddddddd !

PS. I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS =(

brainless freaks

I have no idea which fucking arse spread that stupid rumours. Come on, if you have the guts to say it, make your name known so that i can know who are you. Don't be such a coward hiding. Have you had nothing better to do? Then go bang the wall instead. I don't think you will feel any pain cause you are brainless. Do you think by saying this, you are very big? Oh please, it's such a fucking coward act of yours. Get a life please. I can't stop stupid & brainless from talking but please think twice before you say. What if you were in my shoes and people say untrue things about you? YOU WILL BE FEELING THE SAME AS HOW I FELT WHEN I KNEW ABOUT IT. Such childish act to do this stupid things. I curse your mouth to rot, whenever you open your mouth,STINKY smell coming out, teeth start to decay, go out tio bang & become brainless, do anything also cannot do it properly. STUPID ARSE! GROW UP! Hope you become mouthless soon! =D

Childish people disgust me. You make me wanna puke my 18 years of food which i ate.
Fuck Off.
Thank You.

Tired

I've really no idea what others have in mind. Having to keep it to themselves is all they do. It's so hard to crack their skull to know what they are thinking. I give up. I surrender. Please don't give me any of this shits ever again. Friends comes by and goes quickly too. Some true, some fake. True friends stands by you whenever you needed someone. Fake friends just pretends to be true but on the other side, they blurt out false things about you. They are just some hypocrites. or rather some humans who are jealous of you?Wow, being random this few days. Just really sick of boot-lickers & people who sees appearance rather than the inner self. Bought a tee today with some wordings on it.
"Hug me or Kiss me , Honey" Omfg, i don't know which mind of mine asked me to buy it. I just took it showed it to my mum and she nod her head as in not bad and i just placed it at the counter. I just fell for the tee at first sight. Trying really hard to get him out of my life. I'm really trying. I may seem that i have forgotten him but the truth is, every night before i turn in, my mind will be filled with him & I'll be tossing on my bed. Sleepless night ever since then. Looking at loving couples really make me heartache. But i just got to accept the fact that he's gone. Well, I'm still in a dilemma. Nevermind, time is the medicine to everything. Looking forward to my future. I need a job man...I'm tired, heading for my bed soon. I've lesson tomorrow. Fcuk School.

Action speaks louder than words

Yesterday, Headed town for lunch with Dap & Sy. Met up with boi & ahwu and we headed for bunk? Of cause not for the coms there. Was to meet ahmao . Ahhui came & we all accompanied her for lunch. Chit Chat Chit Chat. So funny ~ "Last time my ahma is a chiobu" I was laughing my ass off! Damn hilarious lahs! They played com awhile & off we went our different ways.

Woke up late today and i was't able to attend my morning lesson. So i took my america time to prepare & audi-ed. Dap msg-ed me & off i went to school. Half the class was gone when we reached the class. Omfg! Sat for around 15 to 20 minutes, we went off too. Met up with ivan and junjie and we headed to Jurong point. Idiotic, was being tricked to go down. Actually junjie meet a girl and he was scared. (nbcb!) Ivan and me so poor thing =x Poor ivan, kept being beaten by me =x Serves you right for ''slapping'' me.

Aiyoh, i'm lazy to continue -,-"

I could only say others when i couldn't put it to actions. But i don't hope for anything. I just wish things will go my way & nothing will eventually goes wrong. I have my friends there for me. I don't want to disappoint them just for an unworthy person. But regarding if he's worth or unworthy, sometimes i'll have the hesitation between it though the answer is very obivous. What can i do? Nothing will to work if 'things' are back together. Ohkay, kind of random.

I'm still currently forgetting him .
But I'm alright ! :D
No worries lahs !

Fun

YAWNS~ I'm so tired. Got a call from Joanne & she's heading for my house. Maybe we would be having girls chat later on (:

Anyway, Was at town with ahhui and Junjie & CO. Danny made me kind of pissed off. ZZ. They headed to Bugis when he said they are coming back. Wtf. Bluff me. Nvm. Jj and ivan came to find me and makan ! Ahjie also came to find me.

Saw glenna! *hahas* So sweet ! :X ! Talked a little with them & ahhui and me went PS to walk. Bought my notebook! Went arcade to find the rest! Hahas. Derrick so big shot. Made everyone of us wait for him ._."

Was deciding where to go for i don't know how long. Glenna went off first =( ! So they came up with a decision of playing pool. So headed to Marina Hotel to open table. So funny can, jj's been claiming that he's a international player but he lost to ahhui! LOL! So funny ! They played for an hour plus while i watched for an hour plus too. (haha)

After which, danny came back and we all headed home? Hahas, ivan's such a gig. =X Not forgetting jj too. (=X)

Overall, fun lahs! Lets go out again! Hee^^ But this time round with plannings done! :D

Cya peeps ard!


;Reply of Tags

derrick: yo bell !! hurtful memories forget it then. tomorrow is a new day !
ME:Haha, thx dy :D

m.c: no sad feelings please.. you're the best girl ever!! (:
ME:=\ thx bai chi ! :D

Allen: btw i wil link u too, bell jys ><
ME:u2 jy :D linked (:

Bell'sBoy(:: hello im here to tag ; whatever happens for a reason,love aint so fun all th time.we just gotta move on with scars&learn to be better(: LV stop scolding each other here. its a place we laugh&joke.as friends. not as enemies.mango is just being concern.(: &thankyou for giving her such a screwup r/s dont worry i will treat her better than you.obviously i wont just come&go.i set a foot down to be tc of her.&i will do it better than you.(:so dont worry everyone.bell will be fine,oklar im not that good to make her happy but i'll be here for her.(: her superboy (: i hope this tagboard will be flooded with peace. aint flooded with fcks.tyty mango&hui&everyone else for putting effort cheer her up
ME:Thanks slowboy! Ure de best ever :D

ahboi:~haha! so many dai ji.. bell since over le, let it go.. find a better 1.. no point holding on to some1 who doesnt loves and trust u.. so old le still dont noe how to think.. haha~! stay happy!
ME:Whr got many taiji. U blind uh. LOL! Anw , thx for doing so much la. Lols. U2 stay happy !

ForSaken: jie ! T_T u cheated my feeling say u buang, so chio sia ! T_T
ME:lol?

YL: bell , smile ! & i wanna meet you stupid ! we shall b!tch & laugh our ass off like last time ! hahahahaha! forget abt LV . opps, i think gucci better ! hahah! lovelove
ME:LOL! AHDAN! Uh,, gucci doesn't sound better to me either. lols. Meet up soon bitch!

Tales

Yawns, awaken by some news and wasn't able to sleep back. Come on, if you want to say my things, tell me IN MY FACE. DOn't say behind my back. Only such cowards would do such things. Don't say "cb lei de bell *blahhblahh*" So obivious of who I am referring to. I bet you will sure tell her. Well, since i blogged it, I am not afraid of you telling her. Because this isn't the first time you telling her about it. Am I right? *LAUGHS* SO pathetic... And for you information, please do not add words to what i didn't say. I am very particular about such stuffs.

Do not dirty my tagboard with those vulgarities. I'll ban the person if i ever see it again. Please buck up on your english before leaving "some tags". (oops-LOL)

Will be going out with danny & co later. But what will we doing leis? Hmmm, I HATE YOU? Lol, kind of random? Yanws~

To My Friends : I am alright (: Don't needa worry for me. Cause I really thought it clearly already. Soon I will be L* free (: (LOL) Who did i mentioned? No idea =X But anyway, thanks for all your concern (:! You peeps are the best ever :D! As for now, I'm gonna study real hard. Missed out tons of things cause of ahem. I don't want to regret later in future.

Fuck, down with flu & sore throat. Never had i been so miserable in my life. First, all these shits come as and when it like & left a fucking obivous scars for me. Now with this irritating flu & sore throat.

Update with more happening later ~ Ciaos ~

The end

Decided to put an end to all those hurtful things.
Really took a big courage for me to do it.
But i guess thats the only best way for me.
I can't possibly bluff myself that he loves me when he don't.
If he likes to contact other girls, by all mean.
Since he rather trust other people then to trust me "gf", there's no point carrying on a meaningless relationship.
Having to put up with all those lies, is rather tiring.
But i thought if i love him, i wouldn't mind at all.
But it became more and more hurt to hear all those things you did behind my back.
Have you ever thought of my feelings?
I'm always the one waiting for you.
Rather stupid of me to do that.
Within these 2 months and 11 days, we broke up 4 times(including these) and patch for 4 times.
Whenever you asked for patched, I thought you have changed.
But I'm wrong, utterly wrong about my thinking.

All your reasons for the break up are really nonsense.
1st break up:We don't seem to be like bf/gf.
1st patched:People had been pestering you so you asked for patched.
2nd break up:Feelings fading & don't suit.
2nd patched:Cause hiro talk to you.
3rd break up:Not suit & thinking are different.
3rd patch:Knew what you want & will treasure me.(with a casted knee)
This time, it was me who mentioned break.
4th break up:Rather believe other people then me, covered your lies over lies. Once your knee healed, Sick and tired of me already.
How can you be so heartless to do all this to me?
Since you wanna flirt, now you're free to do what you wish and like.
No one will be stopping you.
One day you will see yumi's true colours.
At first i thought she's a nice girl.
But i'm wrong.
So 'suey' to meet such people.

I'm not a entertainment.
I'm not those who you think ure bored then come finding for me.
If you wanna find entertainment, please go to the circus.
All the promises you said are really all empty promises.
You said those because you wanna me to believe that you want me.
I think i'm really so dumb so trust you.
I'm so stupid to fall for you.
I'm such an idiot to believe what you have said.
Maybe you set this trap to trap me.
And gratz to you.
I fell for it.
But now i'm gonna make an escape to all these.
Though there will be bruises and scars made.
But it will make me remember how dumb, stupid, idiot of me in the past.
Looking back to the past of what i did, i can actually laugh at myself.

I am really very disappointed in you.
No words can describe you.
Hate me all you wan for me writing you.
But don't you think it's true?
Dont deny it please.
I don't know how to reacted to the situation now.
Cause all seem too sudden for me still.
But there's a load off my heart already & i feel better.
Rather then to make myself think so much.
I had enough of these.
I won't turn back from these moment onwards.
If i were to turn back, friend, please wake me up.
I'm gonna look forward & my future (:

Well, though we can't be lovers, but we could still be friends (:
I will be over these real soon (:
Takecares my friend.
Good luck in the near future.
Goodbye my love =D

Our love story started on 060908 but ended on 171108.

Forever and ever

Met ahhui for lunch yesterday at yewtee. Chatted alot with her. Lol. Honey was sick But now feeling alright already. Must takecare ok , my boy(:

Audi-ed with honey today and the feeling was great. Feels like last time when we just coupled. So fun ~ I just love the way you are :D

I'll never stop loving you till the oceans drys up, human become extinct.
That means my love for you will be forever :D
Muacks ; HugHug
Miss you my love <3

XOXO

Was actually nagging to Daphne & Joanne that he isn't coming. But he came! I was like smiling ear to ear! Skipped first day of lessons. God damn shit.

Watched him played audition & l8r i hugged him to sleep. Not really sleep ba, more like disturbing each other! Muahahaha!

I need you.
I love you.
I trust you.
You're mine <3
XOXO.

Paranoid

Went down to bedok after my church yesterday. Tmm-ed with honey and went home at around 4+. I miss you so D:!

I am having this weird feeling and I don't know if it's a good one or a bad one. Something is just bothering me. And i don't know what is it. Can someone please help me find what is bothering me?
Mayb i'm just being paranoid =\

I miss you so & please don't leave me.

I don't wanna history to repeat again.

I bet you knew how i felt.

I love you way too much (:

WO AI NI ! I LOVE YOU !

Hee ^^ Muacks hubby <3

Love my ticopeh

7 November 2008
Woke up damn early to prepare myself to meet Honey. Accompanied him to CGH to have his appointment. At last , the cast was out! But not so good news and not bad news either. Was enjoying the moments spent!
Deciding where to head to but ended up, going home. Freaking miss him when I'm home. Though just met him not long ago. 24/7 isn't enough for me to see him! Argh!

8 November 2008
Was actually heading to meet honey but he asked me to stay home to rest. So sweet of honey ! Something pissed me off. Fuck up! I'm so gonna call honey later ~ Muacks my ticopeh <3

Didn't know I was such a busybody.
People's business i bother so much for fuck.
But when feeling upset come complaining to me.
It's like you think I bother about your things?
Please lahs, if you don't come telling me I wouldn't give a damn about it .
You think your things are so simply to solve?
Please go and think about what you said and done.
Stop giving people false hopes when you ALREADY HAVE A BOYFRIEND.
So slutty& bitchy.
I don't care if my words have offended you.
You made me fucking pissed.
Stop telling tales about your life.
Stop saying that your famous when i don't think you are?
People say hello only then you say you are famous?
OMFG?
How old already.
I am sure you know what to do .
Don't even know what you said are true anot and i don't even wish to know if it's true or not.
Cause it's NONE OF MY BUSINESS!
If you think Sorry can solve everything, then you are wrong.
You made me really pissed and I don't think you are suit to be my friend.
Sorry to hear that ~
Fuck off. Thank you.

HAPPY 2ND MONTH ANNIVERSARY HONEY

HAPPY 2ND MONTH ANNIVERSARY HONEY !

Honey came to my place and we spent the 2nd month of being together! I was being tortured! Yelling for help ~

I'm glad that we're still together though there were many obstacles in between. But that didn't stop me from loving you. I am really glad to have you part of my life & as days, years goes by. I'll be yours & you'll be mine! Being together with you is the most happiest days of my life and I'm sure whenever I'm with you, I'll be the fortunate girl .

I just want to be with you and just you.

I LOVE YOU ; MUACKS

P.S Sorry to Glenna,Ivan,Junjie,Danny for flying you guys ><>

He's my lovepie, happypie and applepie

Honey is so blurr! I asked him to call me up at 8am but he called me at 9am. So cute lahs! He is so blurr ! The more blurr he is, the more i dote and love him!

Prepare myself and waited for flo to get out of the house. Met up with her at Cck and headed to the Poly Clinic. Damn bloody long . Both of us were so damn sleepy! My turn came and i told the doctor what's wrong and he said he have to touch my stomach. I was like "huh?". He said have to know where is the pain. So damn weird lahs. After which collected my medicine and flo was laughing at my chinese name. i hate my chinese name! Went to Lot1 and we bought our stuffs.

Told honey about the doctor touching my stomach and he's reply was damn funny! So funny lahs! He's my lovepie, happypie and applepie :D

Muacks honey ~

Pictures of you

I'm loving you ~

Well, MDIS -,-" Idiotic arse. Fuck it. Screw it. Sucks man.

Went ps to have our lunch & jalan awhile before heading to find Honey ! I miss him so much ! Though i met him yesterday only :X

He just makes my day ~

He's mine & I'm his property :D

;Reply of tags

♥ ForSaken: well lover i am strong enough but dun think i would want be strong afterall, cos no good thigns happen all the times when i want be strong LOL tc and meet up soon ~

ME: You cn be strong de (:

G: MUACKS! hope you're nt stress nw alr! hehe (:

ME:Muacks i'm not more stressed ! :D

-JiiaTong: BELL BELL:] link me:D

ME:Linked :D

aloy: cheer up life is full of wonderful things.

ME:Hahas thats true (:

-ACE-Nemo: HELLO

ME:HELLO :D

ForSaken: lover ! congrats and last long ~

ME:Thanks :D

hhuiix: hope he treat u well this time arbo i sure wack him til he no face come out see ppl. LOL ! STAY HAPPY LURH !! WOOT !

ME: LOL! Sure ~ :DDDD meet up soon ~

Start over ; 060908

1st november 2008

Went out to have my letter posted. My mother nagged at me for being so forgetful to bring out the address. This is the very first time i'm mailing something which needs to be weigh. Can imagine how stupid my face was. Afterwhich, walked around with my mama and she gave the idea of going to the Farmart! So yup we made our way there. Tried the fish spa and oMFG! It was damn ticklish and the uncle said my face went red. So embrassing >< Then walked for a while and had our lunch settled there! Then went off home ~

Yumi came finding me in the evening due to some problems. So she waited for me to prepare myself before heading out! I tried dragging the time but failed. So prepared and went to find someone ~
Was messaging throughout with louis & yup, i decided to give one last shot ><
Please send your regards to me! HAHA!
3am+ yumi's boyF came to fetch her and also send me home too! Haha *saves on cab fare:X*

2nd November 2008

Was being awaken by the news that my uncle passed away due to colon cancer. HAIS! Went church and after that cabbed to honey's place ! The blurr me waited at the wrong block and i was really damn toot lahs. We chat, laugh and TMM :D! Honey's knee got casted! Aws! But no worries! 7th nov will be arriving soon! I will wake up earlier on that day! Showed him some stuffs which he insisted on me sharing with him. I guess he's gonna realise how fortunate he is? (LOL) I L & M Y ! Muacks honey ~ :D