I love you , Mum.

Reached home and saw the cake that my mother bought for my birthday. Tears filled my eyes, and for once, I really regretted answering her back and not being a good daughter. Mother's love is the strongest!

To Mum :
Thanks mum for the cake. I really didn't expect that you will buy a cake for me. I'm sorry for the past for what I have done. From today onwards, I'll do my part as a good daughter. I'm sorry for showing attitudes for the past few years. I'm sorry.
I love you , Mum.

With loves,
Your daughter, Junie.

Miracles to happen

Woke up early to visit the Doctor due to my coughing which already took place for almost a week. Been rather tired since Sunday, wasn't myself throughout the week. You never fail to occupy my mind with those words you mentioned to me. Guess I won't be seeing you even once before my birthday.

I never fail to pray to God for some miracles to happen bewteen us.
I know clearly that I'm lying through my teeths, but I just want to stay positive.

Think....

Fuck life, fuck love, fuck everything. Screw up everything I have. All fucked it. Starting as good as an angel but as time goes by, turning into a devil with red horns. Why are all of them the same? Can't some of them just be exceptional from the others? I guess not... Was super shag today due to some fucking stuffs early in the morning. Late for work, but lucky jimmy didn't KP. The thing was in my mind all the time even though I still laugh or busy doing things. Every where is memories. Even in the shop. The route where we cross the road to MS, void deck, shell station, green tea and huggy and kissy scene. I can't simply make a decision right now. At the point of time when I'm falling... I don't want to regret my decisions. Seriously, I really didn't know what those actions meant. Can't they possibly use their mouths to say it out? What are mouths for? And i don't know why I would allow you... Ah, fuck it man. Vexed from all those thinkings whereas you just texted and ask me not to think so much and go home and sleep early when it's fucking hard to do it. Why can't they simply stand in our shoes? Is it so hard? Well, as for them, i guess so... Feeling so lethargic since Sunday. I ought to get this matter a solution. But I'm afraid that it would turn out negative. I seriously don't know what I want. I'm not sure whether few days are enough for me to sort things out. How can he say till so simple? Guess I really know who really cares and love me for who I am. =)

Having to think what I want ...........................................................

always exists in my heart

Wasn't in the mood for work today. Can't help but to think of him. OhmyG... I still remembered what I thanked God for when I went to church.
"Thank God for K.Tjen" You make me feel happy when with you =)

Texted and told loves about it. I'm sorry for thinking about it =(
I was really afraid =(

My cough is getting from bad to worse.

He's presence always exists in my heart,
even though he isn't beside me =)

ily ; K.Tjen

Last minute got to work, good thing in disguise as I have no more UPL this month. So pay will still be the same =)

Previous post was kinda messy, due to the mood that I was having ytd night. Well, didn't actually knew that I am falling for you alr. Missing you every single mintue when you aren't with me. And since then, I have been thinking alot. I know it's useless to think so much but I just couldn't help it. I am really afraid of losing you alr. Don't see me as a strong girl on the outside, actually I'm the oppositie on the inside. This is really a 'test' to both of us. And when after you told me about your nightmare, actually it didn't bother at all. But ytd after you left, on my way to Suntec, I have been thinking about it. Actually it does bother me alot. I'm really afraid you are still in your 'past tense'. Somehow, the feelings you gave me is quite similiar to him. I don't know... Mayb I am being paranoid. But I won't have this kind of feelings for no reason. Well, maybe one fine day I'll pour out my thoughts to you so that you would know what I am thinking deep down. I guess that's the only solution that could settle me down deep inside.

I would wish to treasure this r/s but it takes two hands to clap. You told me you would, but time will tell it all =)
Loves, I am missing you every mintue, seconds. How? I am thinking like what are you doing now, eaten alr, most imptly, will you be booking out this weekend and meeting me? =) I just have to see your cute face and spiky hair to calm myself down =)

Off to work, can't wait till ten for loves to text me =)

ily ; K.Tjen

I'm loving your everything

Starting from what happened yesterday.

Met up with Loves yesterday night for movie! Freaking miss him lots! Chilled and slack till times up & I love crossing the road with him (: Went for our movie......................... =)

Today after church waited for loves to reach yishun, bought the tix and movie time! =) But after movie, loves got to go =( Felt sad but can't help it. Prepares to book in =) Freaking miss loves after we went our separate ways.
Trained down to Suntec & waited for Jasmin to knock off from work. Bused to Far East after that and met up with the bitches. Dinner, chill and photo taking done.

I love the way you hold my hands and cross the road

& saying that I'll be safe with you around.

I love the way you hold me in your embrace.

I love the way you kiss me in the lips.

I love touching your spiky(botak) head.

I'm loving your everything =)

Day 9

The Reunion.

Food that Jasmin cooked for me!

Day 9
Started work late and CA and Maiko dropped by! Hahas... Had some mini talks and we were all cursing and swearing together. That's the consequences of offending girls. (Smirks) End of the day, joey came! It's like finally... After work, chilled with Jasmin at the same old place and had our secretive chats :D


Yes!! Will be neeting Loves tomorrow after work! Can't wait to see loves with his botak head! Miss him super lots!

How I hope you were with me every single seconds (:

Day 8

Day 8
Morning shift... Waited in vain for Raffles City inQbox for the carriers. Texted jimmy that I'll be late cause of these. And he replied me : Use my key to open the door haha. And i called him, he laughed at my sillyness. Damn it, Am i so nice to get bluff? Shit him lahs. Opened door and 203 came. Chatted with her and was feeling freaking cold in the shop. First time... Had these feverish mode thru' out the day. Just hope I wouldn't fall sick on Sunday! Even if i were to fall sick on Sunday, I'll meet loves, no matter what!

Couldn't sleep last night. Similiar to last week... As he was booking in that particular thursday. One week since i last saw loves. Dry cough now and then... I freaking miss you, loves!

If i could have a chance to choose all over again,

I would choose this path again.

Cause I wouldn't regret making this decision.

Ily (:

Day 7

Day 7
Tired.... Work's alright... Had some crazy laughters with 903. Jimmy came down later in the night and the nonsense began... Texted with loves after work and he went to sleep. I do hope the two bars of batt do last till saturday night! Can't wait to see loves on sunday !!!

Missing you all day & night long ~

Day 6

Day 6
Work was fine, sales wasn't that bad but no commission ): Had supper with Jimmy and Jasmin at Newton Circus again and was texting Loves thru' out. After which, jimmy sent us home. And my Loves went to sleep (:

Sore throat again ):
How i wish ..... SUNDAY IS TOMORROW ! :D

You are all i ever wanted, Loves.

Day 5

Day 5
Went shopping with mum today at bugis. Bought 2 pairs of shoe and a dress! Ahhh, lazy to update -,-

What's the past, let it be... I don't bear grudge on it. Treasure what you have around you and not let them slip away and regret it in the near future. Chances are being made out by humans!

Can't wait to meet loves on sunday...

Thank God for you, Loves (:

Day 4

Day 4
Morning shift sucks... Dozed off in the bus like some sleepy person. Work was alright... Received K.Tjen text and he was damn free today. I rather they let him book out! "Ate snake" and sat in the storeroom with Jasmin. After work, chatted with Joanne on the phone and 9, wemt pff from the shop to meet up with Daphne. Headed to MS for our dinner and some girly talks! Sy came and more nonsense began. Chilled outside the toilet. Afterwhich, Home Sweet Home (:

My Loves ; K.Tjen

Day 3

Day 3
Went out with Jasmin before work. Great day with her! Shall do it more often yea (: Anw, afterwhich, went to the IT fair and nothing caught my eye. And damn it, got so squeezing that my bag kind of gave way. Wth... Went to some sales and i bought some new bangles! *Happy*

Work's boring today... Feet felt sore due to those walkings done. Missing K.Tjen the whole day... 3 Weeks is freaking long man... Why can't it be 3 days? Why?! Why?! Why?!After work, loves texted me and standard routine, we texted till he goes to sleep. After that, chilled with Jasmin at some corner and cam whored! but due to her network problems, couldn't get it from her today. Shall upload it when I received it!

& you know I miss you so ; K.Tjen

Day 2

Day 2
Had some conflict with someone when woke up. It really piss me off... Ah, Whatever. Anyway. had some phone chat with Daphne and Selena. Freaking long we last conference on the phone.

Work was alright, and the crowd was @@. Suddenly damn busy... Sales was alright. Bus-ed home after work and my loves texted me! Texted for a while and lights off for him.

Missing K.Tjen ~

The Very Special Day-Date ;110609.

Wednesday
Work was alright. Met K.Tjen after work together with Jasmin for supper! Headed for makan sutra... After eating, we went to slack for a while and took off real soon. Jasmin went off and left me and K.Tjen waiting for my bus. And i realized, i had no more bus... So K.Tjen sent me home and we chatted at my house void deck. Just like a heart - to - heart talk. I'm really happy that he's being honest with me. Will not be seeing him for few weeks. Due to him signning on Navy... Poor him, drank till no voice left. Decided to part at 2am as he has to pack his stuffs and I've got work early in the morning. Texted and ......11 June 2009......

Thursday
Couldn't sleep, so decided to text K.Tjen around 5am. Saw his reply at 6am. Can't stop thinking of him... I don't know why...Texted awhile and i fell asleep. Suddenly woke up at 9.45am and I panicked! Cause I was suppose to open the shop at 11am! So rushed and luckily I made it in time (:
Commision :D! Had supper with Jimmy and jasmin... I can't stand Jimmys' jokes. He bought a new phone and he's showing off in front of us! And used his new phone to call and say was trying out his new phone! Action sial! Received K.Tjen's msg , texted each other for a while and he went to sleep.
Takecares, my boy.

The promises made between us.

It will stand till both of our feelings fades.

Feelings forming, & love's in the air.

The Very Special Day&Date ;110609.

Time is ticking away

Opened the shop today , followed by Kenneth's call. Saying he will be dropping by later on. So did the sweeping of floors, dusting of boxes and wiping the island glasses. And soon, he arrived! Chatted with him and jimmy called -,- Saying who is that and i answered him, friend... And he said not boyF uh, then chase him out. If boyF, he will close one eye. Wtf man... What kind of boss is that... After hanging up, continued chatting with him... Didn't realized 1 hour had passed. Nice chatting with him (:

Work's alright today but jimmy has been giving me cleaners job to do. Therefore, THE COUNTER IS VERY CLEAN NOW!

Tired, tired, tired...

Shall head to bed soon!

SISTER(S)

SISTER(S)

Okay, sister. Don't say I am bias or what. As these post belongs to you. One and only sister of mine. Well, time passes so quickly that when thinking back, we actually knew each other for around 6 months plus. And you have always been there whenever I needed someone. You will always be making me "paiseh" by saying those things and eventually I will 'scold' you asshole sial. I just don't understand why, whenever I am talking to you, my vulgarities are countless. Like what you said before, sister can make you laugh right? Where can I find this kind of sister who will let you scold and make you laugh? That's kind of true, though I think I am better than you! I still remember that time when I scolded you and you were burning hot in the inside. My apologys, sister. Glad that you didn't bear grudge on that. Anyway, sister, don't get into games and spend hundreds over it. Spend wisely too! Hope you do find your soulmate soon! Sisters for life bastard. Hahahaha~

Love Is Like A Violin

Love Is Like A Violin.
The Music May Stop Now And Then,
But The Strings Remain Forever (:

Lately old man has been nagging continuously. No idea what's up with him man... Need a break from all those nags! Had some pranks with Jasmin at work regarding some stalkers. Damn irritated by those calls and asking nonsense... After work, bus-ed home... Otw , had some nonsense sms with jasmin and was giggling away like nobodies business. Freaking hilarious bodoh...

It's their choice and mouth to speak nonsense... Why bother? -.-

Yawns...

Dear Cara,

Happy sweet 17th brithday to you sweets... Though we have not known each other for years, but few months would do. It's really my pleasure to know you and just you. Shall meet up and craps soon! I miss you so ...

Seeya babe (:

3 months has passed...

Just a blink of eyes and i realised that I have been working at inQbox for 3 months already. Time passes so quickly till I don't have much time to do the things I have been longing for... Things happened so quickly too within these 3 months... One thing that I am grateful is knowing that somebody (: Not to mention my fellow colleagues... Fate answers all the mystery ~ After knowing that somebody, my life changed... having to forget some ungrateful person... & knowing that someone nearing to 3 months too (:

Flu & cough have been pestering me this few days. Was eventually sneezing the whole day and Jasmin is damn irritated by me blowing my nose. *laugh* All your fault for passing the virus to me! Should have you quarantine that time. Not much appetite these few days due to this sickness I've got... But still have the cravings for cheese fries! Argh, should put a pause to it till my cough goes away. No off day for these week... Not sure whether will i be able to stand the shift... Rather stick to the previous schedue... The bold me texted that someone but that someone isn't free tomorrow... It's alright, there's always a next time (: Aws, having a sudden craving for fruit juice now =\

Shall meet Sy and Char or shop alone tomorrow... Sounds emo to shop alone but having to hear from Jasmin that shopping alone is fun, maybe I shall try it when I have the chance to (:

Just the thought of you, makes me smile (: